Pushing The Envelope

An overwhelming understanding
of chaos brings you to your knees
impurities make me the way that I am
the dirt in my veins
the games on my thoughts
the stains on your face
they break it apart
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Mothering
Pushing the envelope
gets me off
Pushing the envelope
your face it sets me off
I'm curled up inside myself so I won't imagine the pictures
If I had prosthetic eyes I still think I'd see the same
satisfy retribution in lies
to resemble innocence in lies
subsequent afternoon's turning scared
bothered by fallacies everyone's scared
Pushing the envelope
Life sets me off
Pushing the envelope
Hate gets me off
Mothering
Pushing the envelope
gets me off
Pushing the envelope
your face it sets me off
Killing myself like a tool in wrong
Disquieting changes in direction