[Hook: Jake Hill]
I m not suicidal I don t wanna ing die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 1: Josh A]
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I m living the life when I m battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pounced in
I hear him howling, my vision clouded
Man I tried to escape but there ain t no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain
(yuh) Put a bitch in the coffin, so my family has options
Gonna work till I m dead
So that they get the best
Don t wanna set up a bad example cause kids looking up
Can t leave them in shambles can t make them think clocking out is ok
So suicide I m here to stay
[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don t know what s right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don t know what s right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I ll be out here running, I ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I ll be out here running, I ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
[Hook: Jake Hill]
I m not suicidal I don t wanna ing die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
[Verse 2: Jake Hill]
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I m pressed with time, I m stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didn t mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
I ve been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out
()
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I don t believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff
[Chorus: Josh A]
Try to free my mind
I don t know what s right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
Try to free my mind
I don t know what s right
Wasting all my time, trying to find the light
(nah, nah)
I ll be out here running, I ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
I ll be out here running, I ll be running from myself now
Gunning demons down find my way out of this cell now
[Hook: Jake Hill]
I m not suicidal I don t wanna ing die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
I m not suicidal I don t wanna ing die
Just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)